Holiday is Ending!!!!! Oh NO!

my title seem to be over dramatic. haha. my holiday is 4 months long and im left with 6 days!! gonna start class next Monday. too lazy to even think of moving and going to class. but at the same time, im excited to start class!! i havent seen most of my uni friends for 4 months! even though im repeating 2 subjects, that wont put me down. hopefully i would do better.

holiday rambling
went back to sabah, spend time with friends.

balik kampung to tawau for a week, i think. i made a post for that;
Tawau, Sabah.

went to Terengganu for a day only for zarra @ sarah's wedding.

comedy club. love love love Ron Josol. check out his stand up snippet here!!!!

and most of my friday nights i spend at backyard with my friends!! thank you for sharing the same interest with me... heheehe. im pretty sure whoever end up going there, would love the place. awesome band, friendly people, i know its weird but the place actually feels homey.

all in all, this holiday is one of the best holiday i have ever had! even though i have no accomplishment at all for the 4 months. but this is what our younger years should be when we look back at our life in the future. at least for me. i will try not to remember the bad stuff in these 4 months and remember all the good times spent with family and friends. right now, im declaring my love to all my friends and family. LOVE YOU!!!! <3

Bambam 101

That was the day i want to remember. the day i found myself capable of feeling that feeling. that stupid surprise. the way things started, went on and ended. with my close friends seeing the side of me they have never seen before. that day is one of the days that i will try not to forget. remember it. smile when it crosses my mind or even laugh about it.because not everyone can say that they went through the same thing. its weird how coincidence happen. in such a huge world, that moment i feel like its a small one. thank you, for i am treating it as a gift. that person have never failed to make me smile. even when it was not something that was suppose to happen. world are full of surprises. and this surprise is just what i need at this point. I am abso"fucking"lutely bambamize by you.

Rambling 101

have you ever felt like crying when you see one of your friends crying? this is the first time i felt this way. when i see her crying about her life, suddenly my life flashes in my mind. how unhappy i am with my own life. the problems i have and the things that i wish i can change.


its weird how life treats you. i know god gave this test in our life because He knows that in the end we will learn something useful out of it. and like they say "what doesnt kill you, makes you stronger". but its annoying to me where i was put in a position where i cant do anything about it. or a consequences of gaining something by losing something. i know that we cant have it all. that is just selfish. but all i want is... oh well, i dont know. apparently im just a human being who doesnt know how to be grateful i think. i know theres a lot of people who have to face bigger problems than me. that is what annoys me too. this problem i have is so little and so petty that i dont think it deserve any attention. yet, this little things that matters most. urgh~


i never wanted something special or extravagant in my life. i just want it to be simple. without any dramas. but what is life without it right? i know that maybe in 10 years i would be laughing about this. and say how immature i was. but right now at this right time, i think it needs my attention. and i can no longer push it away. i have to face it and i have to talk through it. its okay if the problem is just me. but it becomes a problem when it involves someone else. especially in friendship. like the problem that i have now. i dont wanna lose a friendship so i decided to push it away. neglected it. because i know by talking something would change however we said that nothings gonna change, something always will. cuz it has been said.


but i also think in order for us not to end up hating each other is to talk about it. so there would be no assumptions and no confusions. just clarity. yes, thats the world i have been searching for. i just want clarity. i wish things can be different. yet i dont regret any of it and even whatever happens after the talk, im pretty sure i wouldnt regret it too. because it has to be done.i wish i can change one thing. but i dont regret even for a bit about it. i wish that night never happened. i think that we would be good friends. even great was possible. but if it did not happen i wouldnt have the memories that i hold on to now. the best moments i had with him. that i would always cherish even how bad things may end up, i have promised myself that whatever its is im not gonna hold on to the bad things. im gonna remember him, and smile. thats what i want.


i know i kind of rambling here, hence the title. well, its already 6am. and i havent got my sleep. thats why im talking rubbish right now. but i do mean it. every bit of it. oh, well. im out of things to say. my head hurts and i cant think anymore. so im gonna watch naruto now. morning people!!! =)