Life as We Know It

okay, so..... im entering my 4th week in Taylor's. so far, its ok... tho im wee bit older than most of them or maybe all of them... haha! who knows? anyways, its kinda more tough engineering-wise compared to UIA, instead of final year project, we already have projects for first year, first semester. and my group is doing SOLAR WATERING SYSTEM. damn~ i dont know how we are gonna finish it. but the least i can do is give 100% to it and have faith. haha.

and "that guy". hmmm... im not sure with what im feeling. have i moved on? really? sometimes im very sure of it then suddenly i dont. im not sure if having him in my life as a friend is a good thing or not. sometimes im afraid. i dont know. hard to say.... i thought it would be easier to discard him from my life. but its hard! its hard to forget the memories we had. haih~ sometimes when i think he doesnt care about me anymore, i made him to be. and then i start to think again i dont want him to be. its all confusing. distracting myself to other guys doesnt help too... hish!! enoughla!!!

8 months being in KK and now back in KL makes me miss home an family.. huhu~~~ but when im back home i wish i was here. haha. im fickle minded and indecisive. i know!!! but my life since taylor's was actually great!! i start being more responsible and setting my priorities right! i know when i should have fun and when i have to be focused. thats a good thing. but i miss my close friends!!! being in a different uni makes it harder to meet each other and spend time together. and i love my friends too much!! combine all of them their are my perfect boyfriend!!! =)

im blogging from my new laptop by the way!! its about time!!! my laptop of 5 years is still working but so kesian already the condition. haha. thats all for now! when im free,i'll blog again.

*reeha hamed*

To a New Start. A New Beginning.

I'll be starting my new semester on Monday in a new place called Taylor's College. Hopefully it would be good or in fact better than when i was in UIA. i have a lot of hopes and dreams tied to this new phase of my life. And i wouldnt wanna mess it up again. no. not anymore. i've been through a lot of changes this past 10 months of doing nothing. im starting to prioritize which is more important than which, friends who bring out the best and the worst of me, thing i need to let go, things i need to keep in my life and things that actually can make me be a better person.

I need to straighten up myself and make the right decisions this time. this is my second chance. theres no such thing as second second chance. its make or break this time. no more playing around, messing around and playing around. if i do everything right i would still have time to playaround and have fun yet excelling on my studies. its not impossible as long as i put my mind in it right??

most of all, i need the friends that actually support me all the way. i dont need friends whos only there when im there for them and have no initiative to keep the friendship. sorry but goodbye to these people. i had enough of you who partly ruined my life. so thanks alot, i dont need you. goodbye. as hard as it is for me to let go of these people, its time for me to make the right decisions for my life. cuz in the end its my life im living not theirs. and im the one whos dealing with the consequences of decisions that i made in my life. whatever it is i would remember all the friends i had, the memories and the good times. i pray for happiness in their life and i would still cherish them but maybe only from afar.

so cheers to a new beginning, a new start. hopefully this is my time to shine! =)