I think i LIKE him!!!!

ngeeee~~~ *blushing* haha!!!

well, this is a story about a guy named Bambam (real name is P&C)!!the first time it was just "oh, hes cute." thats it. until the day he came and ask for a lighter. but i was being kinda bitchy so i just pushed the lighter towards him and not even looking at him. then he sits at another table with his friend. and suddenly, i was like "hmmm... hes not bad at all."

after that he never even tried to talk to me. we always walk next to each other to the parking lot, cuz we park our car at the same parking space. but he never said anything to me. and just walk. maybe cuz i was being a bitch when he asked for the lighter, he assumed that im some bitcy, proud girl. but the more we didnt talk to each other, the more he acts like he doesnt know me at all, the more he makes himself out of reach the more im attracted to him!!! it got crazy for me! i was like a highschool girl who have a crush on this boy who acts like i didnt exist. haha!!! i really really did like him at that time. there was a point where i think im in love with him. but i never actually had a conversation with him and i dont even KNOW him.

then one day, we had lunch together. a group of friends. and he was there. then i went to have a smoke. alone. just as i light up my cigarette and turn around he was there behind me smoking. you already sit on the same table for lunch, it would be weird if we smoke separately and acted like we didnt know each other. so we smoke together. thats the very first conversation we had. formal at first. name. from which uni. age. from age we start to loosen up and from there we talk about ourselves quite a bit and how the people around us are goody goody and needs some evil changes. haha! oh, and he actually waits for me to finish my cigarette and walk back to our friends together. i know its normal. but i think its kinda sweet too. that was it. i was hooked to him!!! i want to see him everyday.

then, as always...... the thrill of chasing him was gone. like i said the more he acts like hes hard to reach the more attracted i am to him. and now we talk to each other so i guess the thrill of chasing him was gone. and the feeling i have for him also gone. he was back to "oh, hes cute. thats it" guy. for a week and so.. mind you, we only had that one conversation, then nothing. one of the other reason is maybe because i had a dream that hes married. and my vivid dreams are always trying to tell me something. it happened twice, the thing that i dream of becomes real or nearly real. and i was preparing myself for it. the NEXT day, i saw a girl picking him up. the wife? haha!!or maybe if the dream was nearly real, a girlfriend that hes in a solid relationship with. hmmmm....

what do i feel? hmmm.... not really crazy of him like before, but its not like no feeling at all... a little bit glad that he was there. the question is, do i like him??? how do you know, really know that you like that person?

*Reeha Hamed*

Exhaausted!

ok, so ive been in Taylors for a month plus. CRAZY TAYLORS!!!!!!! its the first semester in my first year but its even harder than 2nd year in uia!!!! My god!!! its stressful!!! but its a good kind of stress compared to UIA. Not enough sleep. Semester project, reports, assignments, SET project, tests!!! oh my, i need to really organize myself. time-management is crucial for me now.

the sad thing about this is, i dont have time to see my friends. i miss them! alot!!!! and when i get to see them, its like im not in the circle anymore. cuz they do things together and they did try to include me in but i dont have the time and im always busy. one of close friend says that im abandoning her. she understands but i understand what she meant by that. i always said that if you really care for the friendship you would take time off and see your friends. and right now im trying. and it means more sleepless nights and more tiredness. but its okay, i love them!! and theyve always been there for me. i know if i say that im busy they would understand, but i wana be with them. i wanna have their companionship. and 2 days ago seeing them is kinda refreshing. it reminds me why i love them so much! and with them i dont feel stressed. theyre like a breathe of fresh air after all the craziness of work!!!

why do important calls have to happen when my phone is out of batt or i off my phone purposely so that i can rest or just have fun with my friends without anyone disturbing me??!!! when its on, no important calls and only stupid, unimportant calls. stoooopid!!! Now i dont know why the divisional office was really trying to call me, till they actually called my dad. and my dad pulak didnt ask why they called. sot!! haha

till next time,
*reeha hamed*