Stand-UPS!!!!!

On the 19th of March which was last week, me and my cousin Reen went to our first stand-up comedy!!! It was a great experience! We went to the one at Bentley Music Auditorium in Mutiara Damansara. We bought the tickets few days before the event at TicketPro in Kelana Jaya. It was RM57 each after student discount. (yeay for that. I wanna be a student all my life! haha) The ticket price was so worth it!! Because it was a new experience for us and it was super fun to actually watch it at that place instead of watching it from DVDs or YouTube. We sat on the third row. I call it a safe row. Haha. Oh, and there's no censoring. The jokes are RAW!! To actually hear the words that is considered taboo to be said in our community at a public place was AWESOME!!! You might think that I'm so kolot or kampung to think that way. Well, I don't care! Haha! You have to be there to know how it feels like. Even the host, which is Prem from FlyFM said the f*word alot of times because normally he can't say it on air.

This is the poster for the event. There were three comedians lined-up for the event. And this event is hosted by The Comedy Club Malaysia. Props to them for bringing this kind of entertainment to Malaysia. The first one to entertain us was Jacques Barrett from Australia, He jokes mostly on homosexuality and drugs. Susan Murray is from UK. She was freaking awesome!!!! I love her!! She have this fiestiness in her. Her jokes are mostly about sex and also toilets. The headline was Sugar Sammy (you can find him here). He's one good looking comedian!! That's always a plus! Some said he's an aspiring comedian who's gonna be the next Russell Peters. So go figure.

Me and my cousin are planning to go on more stand-ups and comedy anything as a matter of fact. So, next month we are definitely going to the PJ Live Festival 2011!! (for more info about this, please click HERE!!) I'm planning to go for God of Carnage, definitely to HarthDouglas stand-up and Actorlympics, Comedy Court stand-up, The Comedy Club Asia : Around the World in 80 Minutes, Kuah Jenhan : Tall, Dark & Comedian and possibly if I'm suddenly rich, the rest! Guys, please try and support this kind of entertainment bacause seriously, its worth every penny. And it also reduces stress!!

*cheers*

The Ship!

First thing first. I thought the drama ended but apparently not. And now i just don't care anymore. I don't even have the energy to care. Fuck the world! Fuck people! Not saying that I'm gonna be okay without other people, obviously I won't. But sometimes it's much more peaceful and trouble-free without thinking of other people. Okay, here's the thing. Let's ask ourselves what do we want in a friend? Don't give me the BULLSHIT that you don't want anything from you're friends. Also I don't like other people saying that "When a friend needs something. then only they come to you. If not, they wouldn't care." Well, FUCK YOU! have you heard "A friend in need, is a friend indeed."? And seriously, will you be friends with someone if you don't want anything from them? We need friends because we want people to advice us, share moments and memories, be the listener etc. that is needs! NEEDS!! Okay, some may say that "I'm always there for her/him. But she/he was never there for me." Well, its simple. You either put up with it or leave that person. It wouldn't be that hard. She/he is a bad friend anyway. Why would you wanna keep that kind of friend? Except, EXCEPT, that he/she is actually doing something right. There must be a reason you wanna keep them. Well, human is not perfect. We can't be everything other people wants us to be. Even if we change for a friend, our other friend might not like the newly changed us. We can't go and satisfy everyone. If I am a good friend, you will put up with my shit. Because you know what, you ain't perfect too! And I'm putting up with your shit too. I just dont say it. Because I accept your good and bad. And if I can't I wouldnt want to waste anymore time on that kind of friendship. Waste of energy and time. If you're having a problem with one of your friends, like for an instance... hmmm.... oh, you dont like the way she eats. Just a simple example. Say it! Right there and then! (in a good friendly way of course). Don't wait until you're fighting about something else two years later, the you confessed that you hate the way she eats this whole time!!! That is just stupid! Ungkit mengungkit is just stupid!!!

Enough of my ramblings. I just wanna say, that nobody is perfect. If you're having a problem with a friend;
1) Talk. Not text or chat! At least a phone call. Because with texts and chats, you just dont know the intonation of the other person. You read the way you read it.

2) Instead of hearing from other people and assume, ASK!!!

3) Stop and think. If your friend is accusing that you've done something. Stop talking and start thinking. Did I really do that? If no, then say no. If yes, say sorry and MEAN IT!! It's not that hard.

4) Do not. I repeat DO NOT ungkit mengungkit suddenly. What you have done for her/him. That just mean that you were never sincere on doing it. You just do it so when you have a fight you can come up with these things.

5) When you said, it's done. Everything is okay. Then it's okay. Don't go and send weird messages that gives a message that it's not finish yet. LET IT GO!!! You've said what you want to say. If that friend wants to change, let her/him. If not, leave him/her. SIMPLE!

6) When you have a fight, DO NOT drag any other friends into it. They're not part of the fight.

7) DO NOT compare yourself with other friends. Because if you get a friend who doesn't give a fuck. He/her would say, "because the other friend is better than you!" Would you wanna hear that? No, right!

8) If it's a fight in the same circle of friends. Don't ask for anyone to side you. I do think it's okay if you just want to vent out your anger or dissatisfaction but DO NOT ask them what you should do or agree with your decision. Because you are putting them in a difficult situation. This or that. And again if he/she picks the other friend wouldn't you be more hurt?

9) Give time to your friend to take it all in. If she does not want to talk yet. Let her/him be. She's not ready. DO NOT say that she/he doesn't care about the friendship. Even if she/he is the wrong one. It still hurts to be in a fight with a friend. They just need time to cool down and think what they should do and how to re-act after the fight.

10)When you ask them to change, let time decide on their changes. Do you want them to do it because they feel like they should do it? or do you want them to do it because they feel they have to. Terpaksa?

11) When a friend says something, instead of picking a fight out of it, try take it as good criticism for you to change to a better friend instead of taking all the negatives. Take note of the positives!


If you do or did more than 3 of the above, you might end up having a friend like me. I stop caring. I stop tolerating and I stop thinking that I'm wrong. Because you did wrong too. But instead of having a more longer fight with you, I just shut up and walk away. Because judging from everything you did above, you're not a 'REAL' friend to begin with to the point of there's no use for me to talk because I know it's a waste of time.

Note: I'm sorry if anyone get offended by this. If you don't agree with me feel free to curse me at your laptop/computer screen! For a certain someone, if you're wondering why I wrote this instead of talking to you straight.... Well, we tried "texting". It doesn't work. We refuse to listen to each other. But i understand why you're mad at me. It's just getting ridiculous and i don't think we can be friends like before. It's not that I don't want to make an effort to see you. I'm just too hurt to even make an extra effort. (*but I REALLY am having problems*) For now, I just don't feel like talking anymore. Let's just leave this at this. And maybe if everything turns out the way it should, we may pick it up where we left this friendship. If you don't want to be friends anymore, I understand. "To each, its own" I might not be the kind of friend you want. Instead of getting yourself hurt by me, better off you just leave me be. Thank you for everything. I seriously appreciate it. I DO!! Don't even for a second think that I did not. I'M SORRY.

Drama subsided

like i said on my previous previous post. i had a few dramas to handle. so, i had a talk with my friend about her decision on doing that bad bad thing she did. and she regretted it but its not like she had any other options. agreed. i was just drilling to make sure that she knows that its wrong and i am in no way supporting her decision. but i am gonna be there for her if she needs someone to talk to. i will support her mentally and emotionally to get through her shit. settled.

my other 2 friend who had a fight and dragged my name. well, i thought it was settled. like i said in my previous post. apparently not. i was not okay. suddenly it dawned upon me i should not be treated that way. you cannot just suddenly text me accusing me doing something that u misunderstand as being against u. with the words that you use in that text and u expect me to be just okay with it when you say sorry. normally if you are not close to me, i would not care. i would not even feel a thing. but you are one of my close friends. you expect me to know you but on the same time you do not know me at all. because if you do, you would not be accusing me of such things and talking about it via text message is just stoooooopid! anyways, after talking with my personal psychology.... after i vented to her. i come to a conclusion today to just let it go. a few days ago i was ready to not have her as a friend anymore. that is how hurt and mad i was. but she never did anything wrong to me before this. this is the first time she did. and i do not give up on friendship unless you did me wrong more than once. for me, its easy. if a friendship of mine ends, i will make sure that it is not my fault. i am not the one who ended it. the one who gave up on it was not me. so at the end of the day, i tried my best to keep the people i love. and if i do not. i have no regrets because i tried. haaaaaaah~~~ this feels good.=)

and the next story is about a guy. who i like. but an asshole. hahahahahaha~ he has been weird this past few days. always calling and texting. if you think me as perasan. well, let me live in my own bubble! haha. it is nice. but i want to know the reasons behind it. why suddenly he is being to nicey nicey with me. i just hope not because he does not want me to move on. now, that is SELFISH! and certainly not being fair for me. just let me go already because this thing is just too tiring and sometimes to the point that it is stupid. huhu~

another guy that i have a crush on. ohhhhh~~~ BAMBAM!!!!! like i said he has been very touchy touchy and he is one goofball to hang out with. funny! and you know how i love funny guys. hihi. and a gentleman too, i may say. he hold the door for me. okay, maybe some of you think that is normal. because if you let go the door, who knows that the person behind you was not aware of it and bang the door. but he actually opens the door for me too. hah! take that! told you he is a gentleman. *drools*

Anyways, thats all i have for now from my life. *cheers*

bambam! :P

well, this post is specially dedicated to bambam! :D u made my life colourful with an ounce of highschool girly*ness! and i cant wait to see you!!! everyday!!! well, almost everyday!! heee~ youre just touchy touchy nowadays.

weird

its funny when i learn to let go of that someone i hold on to for quite a long time (look, im not a quitter, thats why) suddenly i see theres a lot of other guys available and around me. i was just too blinded to see. i refuse to look at other people and always comparing them to him. i wouldnt say im over him completely. its just im learning to let him go. whats the point of holding too tight if u know its just not gonna happen right? so im interested in 3 other guys now. lets just say one is a bestfriend of a guy friend, another is someone i see everyday and another one is just sweet who suddenly message me after never contacting each other for nearly 4 years. I still do think of him, miss him and hang out with him. but it hurts lesser nowadays. and i think we can end up being just good friends with good memories to remember. but a secret. haha.

anyways, this past few days or a week or so, i have been thinking. am i a bad friend. suddenly i have to deal with a lot of friendships drama.

1. i said a wrong thing to a friend at a wrong time. that was my fault.

2. my bestfriend made a big decision in her life and its kind of a very very wrong decision. she's afraid to tell me about it cuz shes afraid that im gonna be angry. with that decision i have every right to be angry but doesnt my friends know at the end of the day however wrong they did, im always gonna support them emotionally. and im not gonna end a friendship just because i think what they did was wrong. its their life, their decisions, theyre the ones whos gonna be living in the consequences of their actions. im just here to tell them what i think they should do or shouldnt do, but at the end of the day, its still their decisions. garang sangat kah aku ni?!!

3. 2 of my friends had a fight, they just have to drag my name in. and now im having problem with one of them. its settled. thank god. but reminders to my other friends, when you have a fight that has nothing to do with me please og please dont drag my name in it. i was just here to listen and tell u what u should do. doesnt mean i feel the same way you did towards that person.

haih~ kind of a tiring week for me with starting the class and all. and my ptptn is on hold right now because the stupid goverment changed their mind, bloodyhell! this weekend is gonna be tiring as well, i can feel it in my bones. have to go through it anyway, right? life goes on...

*cheers*