LANGKA weeeeeeee~~~

i just got back from langkawi yesterday. it was super fun!!! well, not that fun. but its certainly a place where i can run to if i feel like running away... just hang out at the beach, dinner, watch live band, socialize then sleep and repeat... what a sweet life... wish i can just throw my life away and live there everyday that way. it will get kinda boring for sure. but the idea of it and when im there it seems like life's not that bad. i miss the beaches. the free alcohols! hihi!! and just meeting people. you can wear whatever you want with no make ups! heaven to me!

met a guy. a rugby player. hes not good looking or anything. hes just good around girls. that kinda guy. but i guess langkawi is the place you meet up with people, hang out. thats it. when we go back to our real life everything feels like a dream. like it never happened. maybe thats the beauty of it. met someone. share your life story with them. listen to their story. just by that you feel a little lighter. like the world is no longer on your shoulder. and for the fact you might not see that person again makes it more mysterious in a way... that stranger you met. that stranger who in a weird way changed your life. its exhilarating, fun and enjoyable in a way. that 2 nights i hang out with you would be remembered as long as i can. i hope my next trip there, you would be there too.... nice to meet you! =)

we went like whole bunch of girls. it was fun. tho im not really close to them, i had fun with them. thanks to alya and belle. two of you are kinda my road to fun and carefree life. a day with you guys was never boring. annoying maybe. but its all good! love you!

now that im back in KL, i have 3 weeks left for my holiday. still contemplating on going back to kk or not. oh and i have a very BENGKAK kaki. thanks to langkawi. accidents happen. haha. there's nothing for me here anyway to do. should i go home or not? hmmmm... staying here would just increase the tendency of me hanging out with a person i shouldn't.

i was good in not replying and picking up his calls. then i got drunk in langkawi and i texted him!!! saying i miss you. that was one of the dumbest thing i have ever done! luckily he replied my texts so i dont feel THAT bad. but still!! why did i drunk texting him?!! why didnt i text bambam or sumthing. why him???? STOOOOPID!!! haih~ and i met him the day i came back from langkawi. it was weird. ut we are both professionals in acting or pretending like nothing happened. so yeah, its like nothing happened. haih~ story of my life. all guys are assholes anyways!! no offense guys! my brother is good! hahaha

i miss the beaches. the carefree feeling, the smoking up at the beach, drink on the beach, friends, live bands, flip flops, bare feet, topless guys!!!, oh everything!!! i wish i have the money... i would go there again! zzzzz...