Monday, December 26, 2011
Who Am I?
A text from an old friend is all it takes for me to stop and think. old friends have this power. to make you go back to times that you forgot have ever existed in your life. as for me, he reminds me of the old me. just one text from him. one simple text. suddenly i felt like he doesnt know anymore. what if he hates me now? what if who i turnout to be is someone he doesnt wanna be friends with anymore?
then, i stopped and think. why should he feel that way? and i realised that 6 years ago, if i knew me now i would not like me. somehow along the way, i become someone that i dont want to end up to be. i know my friends would not hate me for that. everyone change, everyone grows up. but i asked myself, do i like me? i answered no. im not happy. i do things because i think its what my other friends do. its because i need to be cool maybe. or just to make other people happy. but not for myself.
theres still time to change myself to be who i want to be. but when youre already doing those things as part of yoyr life its hard to stop. but i want to stop. i just need someone who knows me, KNOWS me. remind me who i was? who i can be. because right now, i dont enjoy being me. i have regrets and i dont like the reasons for me to do things. i wanna be and do what makes me happy. what makes my old friends happy. because, truly. theyre the one who knows me best. who knows what im capable of. thank you for caring, dear old friend. cant wait to be back in kk and catch up with all my friends. and family. love yous!
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Same Spot
No Butterflies
Not hurt, Not hurting
Cold, Frozen
No more.. The warm fuzzy feeling
Just a friend
Based on nothing
Don't know me
Don't know you
Not even wanting to know
Days go by
Months went by
Years... have been
Still here, Same spot
Tiredness sinks
Running but not moving
Not going anywhere
When will it stop?
Time to change
Time to move
To something new
To something different
As long as we're moving
Not hurt, Not hurting
Cold, Frozen
No more.. The warm fuzzy feeling
Just a friend
Based on nothing
Don't know me
Don't know you
Not even wanting to know
Days go by
Months went by
Years... have been
Still here, Same spot
Tiredness sinks
Running but not moving
Not going anywhere
When will it stop?
Time to change
Time to move
To something new
To something different
As long as we're moving
Monday, September 5, 2011
Eid Mubarak
It is still the first week of Syawal. We have another 3 weeks of celebration. Yet here I am updating my blog at the Starbucks Taylor's University. Yes, we start our class today after a week of holiday and the best part is we have test today!!! Yeay!! *I'm being sarcastic here*
Sitting here at Starbucks I'm actually simultaneously do what I love doing. People-watching! The group in front of me are talking loudly about architecture drawing and objectifying women/girls. There is a girl inside very vintage taking picture with her Lomo camera. This girl being annoying talking like she is all that and a pretty girl just passed me. Yes, I do look at girls too!! :D I think she's from Korea. A guy talking about everything and trying to best out all his friends. Haih~ Nothing is interesting. I'm gonna stop looking at my people.
What did I do during the holidays? Other than adding my weight and sleeping, right now I am addicted to The Sims Medieval. I like it compared to the normal Sims because this one have objectives (quests) that we have to complete. The normal Sims have no objectives or ending. It's boring.
Other than that, catch up with family, cousins and their girlfriends. That's it. I had a lot of assignments due today, which I have not even submit because I have not started on it yet. I will really soon. Like in a few hours. I have to study for my Maths test first which is at 1pm today. Good luck to me!
On Raya itself, our family celebrated with the family in KK since we did not go back to Tawau. It was pretty low key. Just 5 immediate families. And on the second day, we went to Bongawan Golf Country Club just to get a way for a day. It was nice. Monopoly dealing. =) That's it I guess. I have a pretty boring life, I know. A few things can't be written here publicly, so yeah my life is boring for you! Haha~
To end this post, I would like to wish all my friends, families, followers (hiks!), readers and anyone who is reading this, A very very Happy Hari Raya, Eid Mubarak!! Maaf zahir batin. Forgive all my mistakes that I have done whether it is intentionally or unintentionally. Halalkan all the foods and drinks and if I owe you anything, let me know and I will try to pay it back or replace it. =)
Sitting here at Starbucks I'm actually simultaneously do what I love doing. People-watching! The group in front of me are talking loudly about architecture drawing and objectifying women/girls. There is a girl inside very vintage taking picture with her Lomo camera. This girl being annoying talking like she is all that and a pretty girl just passed me. Yes, I do look at girls too!! :D I think she's from Korea. A guy talking about everything and trying to best out all his friends. Haih~ Nothing is interesting. I'm gonna stop looking at my people.
What did I do during the holidays? Other than adding my weight and sleeping, right now I am addicted to The Sims Medieval. I like it compared to the normal Sims because this one have objectives (quests) that we have to complete. The normal Sims have no objectives or ending. It's boring.
Other than that, catch up with family, cousins and their girlfriends. That's it. I had a lot of assignments due today, which I have not even submit because I have not started on it yet. I will really soon. Like in a few hours. I have to study for my Maths test first which is at 1pm today. Good luck to me!
On Raya itself, our family celebrated with the family in KK since we did not go back to Tawau. It was pretty low key. Just 5 immediate families. And on the second day, we went to Bongawan Golf Country Club just to get a way for a day. It was nice. Monopoly dealing. =) That's it I guess. I have a pretty boring life, I know. A few things can't be written here publicly, so yeah my life is boring for you! Haha~
 |
| *Reen, Reena & me* |
Saturday, August 27, 2011
Updates!!!!
Haven't been updating my blog!!! Can't really find time. Was too busy updating my sleep. Haha~ So, I'm back in Kota Kinabalu, my beloved Land Below The Wind :) I'm back of course to celebrate Raya with my family...
My flight was on Thursday, 25th August at 10pm. But I have class from 1 to 5pm. Lab. That was a crazy day for me. I have to go to Taylor's early because of the parking war. And I arrived at 12. It took me more or less an hour to find parking. Not because there is no available parking, but because the parking was out of tokens!!! OUT OF TOKENS?!!! That's the first time I have ever encountered such stupid situation. RM# per entry. I do not know exactly how many students Taylor's have but surely thousands of students and you cant use the money to purchase enough tokens?!! My god!!!
And then we finished our lab late, then I have to go through the traffic at 6pm to go back home. Then I lost my access card for the apartment gate. Then, I have to pack my laptop and everything and we left the apartment at 8pm. Upon arrival, I lost my identification card right before our turn to check in. And the stupid part was I was holding it in my hands with a bunch of stuff. So, I guess it slipped while I was trying to hold on to the other stuff. Luckily, I went to the police station in the Kuala Lumpur International Airport and someone found it and left it there. So I get to check in. Thankfully. In the airplane someone who sat behind us was toooooo smelly. Ugh!! Luckily he changed his seat and went further in front. So I was saved from 2 hours of torture! Arrived at KK safely. But my luggage was not. It was left in Kuala Lumpur Airport. Some technical difficulties according to Firefly! But I just don't care anymore. I don't even have the energy to be angry. Was too tired and sleepy. But good news is, the luggage arrived safely this morning. So everything turn out okay in the end. Thank god!
My flight was on Thursday, 25th August at 10pm. But I have class from 1 to 5pm. Lab. That was a crazy day for me. I have to go to Taylor's early because of the parking war. And I arrived at 12. It took me more or less an hour to find parking. Not because there is no available parking, but because the parking was out of tokens!!! OUT OF TOKENS?!!! That's the first time I have ever encountered such stupid situation. RM# per entry. I do not know exactly how many students Taylor's have but surely thousands of students and you cant use the money to purchase enough tokens?!! My god!!!
And then we finished our lab late, then I have to go through the traffic at 6pm to go back home. Then I lost my access card for the apartment gate. Then, I have to pack my laptop and everything and we left the apartment at 8pm. Upon arrival, I lost my identification card right before our turn to check in. And the stupid part was I was holding it in my hands with a bunch of stuff. So, I guess it slipped while I was trying to hold on to the other stuff. Luckily, I went to the police station in the Kuala Lumpur International Airport and someone found it and left it there. So I get to check in. Thankfully. In the airplane someone who sat behind us was toooooo smelly. Ugh!! Luckily he changed his seat and went further in front. So I was saved from 2 hours of torture! Arrived at KK safely. But my luggage was not. It was left in Kuala Lumpur Airport. Some technical difficulties according to Firefly! But I just don't care anymore. I don't even have the energy to be angry. Was too tired and sleepy. But good news is, the luggage arrived safely this morning. So everything turn out okay in the end. Thank god!
During this one week holiday, I will be busy with my assignments and project research. But I will try my best to update my blog because I have a lot of things on my mind that I want to write up. I just don't have enough time yet. And I might add a new blog about the projects that I' going to do from now on as a Chemical Engineering student. I just thought that it will be easy for me in the future to look for jobs. At least they can see what I have been doing during my studies. What I have learned and how I put it into use for the projects every semester.
Other than that, life is normal. Some stuff I can't write on my blog for public viewing. Haha~ :P So I would like to take this chance to say Happy Holidays!! Drive safe! And Selamat Hari Raya... Weeee~
 |
| *let's have fun!!!* |
Monday, August 8, 2011
Happy Thoughts. Happy Thoughts.
I just read through my blog. Damn emo. Hahahaha~ Meaning my life is so full of emoness. Okay, I'm gonna start with happy thoughts, happy thoughts. Doing what I do best. Laws of attraction. Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts. Come and visit me and never leave my side. Well, maybe once in awhile. So I can appreciate you more. Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts!
I have been in a tip top condition for 2 months so you don't get to come back in my life and ruin everything. Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts. Ahhh~ HAPPY!!! Oh, I think it's working. I'm actually smiling while writing this post. Ngee~
Tomorrow, I'm going to class. It's a full day class. Focus Reeha, FOCUS! This semester is gonna be Legendary. (I hope!). I have an idea to write about something. BUT. I don't really have the time to write it yet. The title would be... Jeng! Jeng! Jeng! I haven't decide. Hahaha. Anyways, new semester, new subjects. Maybe there is some new people *wink*wink*
Life has been good. Looking forward to more. I love growing up. Or growing old. New experience, new situations. There's that occasional "Ah, I love life" moment. I'm a 23 year old not a girl not yet a women. Single. Living in Kuala Lumpur. How much better can it be? Well, if I'm abroad I would be thousand times happier. Maybe. But better make the best out of what I have now right? Oh, lovable me.
Hmmm... Maybe its because its 1 hour and 45 minutes pass midnight. That's why I'm a little bit psycho now. So, I'm sorry to whoever is reading this. May you get this Happy Bug I'm having right now. Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts! Anyways, I wish all a good day ahead and have fun! But it's still Ramadhan so drop down the fun a notch kay guys?
I have been in a tip top condition for 2 months so you don't get to come back in my life and ruin everything. Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts. Ahhh~ HAPPY!!! Oh, I think it's working. I'm actually smiling while writing this post. Ngee~
Tomorrow, I'm going to class. It's a full day class. Focus Reeha, FOCUS! This semester is gonna be Legendary. (I hope!). I have an idea to write about something. BUT. I don't really have the time to write it yet. The title would be... Jeng! Jeng! Jeng! I haven't decide. Hahaha. Anyways, new semester, new subjects. Maybe there is some new people *wink*wink*
Life has been good. Looking forward to more. I love growing up. Or growing old. New experience, new situations. There's that occasional "Ah, I love life" moment. I'm a 23 year old not a girl not yet a women. Single. Living in Kuala Lumpur. How much better can it be? Well, if I'm abroad I would be thousand times happier. Maybe. But better make the best out of what I have now right? Oh, lovable me.
Hmmm... Maybe its because its 1 hour and 45 minutes pass midnight. That's why I'm a little bit psycho now. So, I'm sorry to whoever is reading this. May you get this Happy Bug I'm having right now. Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts! Anyways, I wish all a good day ahead and have fun! But it's still Ramadhan so drop down the fun a notch kay guys?
 |
| *Happy Panda! =)* |
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)