RAMADHAN

It's Ramadhan again. Yeay! Fasting month for the Muslims. I might not be a good one. Some people may say, "what's the point of doing something good just because its the Holy month?" Well, all of you know the quote, "Better late than never" right? I changed it to "Better something than nothing".

Everyone commits sins. Thank God some of still knows how to respect this month and stop it. And who knows it may continue even after Eid right? Nothing is certain in the future except for death. Still we have to have the will to change.

I hope this month will bring me some happiness, clear mind, easiness and peacefulness. I need peace. I need to accept my life and create something better out of it. Give chances. Avoid things that will make my life sad, gloomy or best known as EMO. 

Today is the fifth day of Ramadhan. So far it has been easy and hopefully this will continue until the end of the month. So lets fast and maximize our good deeds this month. We don't lose anything doing it and we are old enough to know what's right and what's wrong. Don't be someone who's ignorant. There's nothing to be proud of when we are doing something bad. 

Have a great fasting month people! =)

The Real Me

All I need is just this;

*new babies*

*Red Velvet*

*Chocolate Moist Cake*

The things that i grow up with, love and will always do. BOOKS and FOODS!!!! A nerd is always a nerd :)

Hurdle

I'm sorry for the way I'm acting towards you lately. Like you don't matter to me.

But you don't get to leave me every time you feel like it and come back expecting I will be the same.

Once, it was okay. Then it just hurts me to do it again, but I do it anyway.
I like you. Love is a big word to use. Like is the only word I can use.

I'm happy knowing that you're happy with someone good like her.

I'd rather you opt for her than being the old you.
 The one who plays around. I don't like him.

I miss you. I'm glad you're trying to get a hold of me again. 
As a friend. Or whatever.

But I'm sorry if I can't let you come back just like that.
It's not I don't want to. But I can't.

Because you can hurt me like no other.

You can't treat me like the other girls. I thought you know me.

I'm not like girls around you. I'm different. I'm not like them. 

You can come and go to them whenever you want. I can't do that.

You should have figured out why. 
Either you're in denial, or you want me to be like them.

I'm not them. I can't be them. I refuse to be treated like them.

Because you're not just some random guy to me. You're not just a friend to me.

You're more to me. I'm not sure what. But , I do need you . 
Not only when you need me.

But when it comes to this... Sigh~ I don't know what I am to you.

But I have my ideas of who I am.

Insignificant. Just another girl. 

Therefore I can't let you back just like that. I can't lose you again. 

I can't afford to feel I lost my friend. Again. So forgive me for how I am now.

I want to be friends again. I want things to be like before. 
Like how it used to be.

But if I have to go through losing you. Missing you. 
Not talking to you for a period of time again.

I can't. I won't. I don't want to do it again. 
Even if it means I'm losing you for good.

Because I'm not willing to take that risk. 

If you still want me as your friend, be patient. 
Convince me you're staying for good.

Convince me you're not leaving me again. If I am that important to your life.

If I am a friend to you. At least.

If you just want to play around with me. 
Looking for me only when you're bored, drop it!

Leave me be. Let me go. 
At least have that last bit of respect for our friendship.

I'm not gonna ignore you. I'm not gonna hate you.
I will always remember what we were.

How we were. And smile every time you crossed my mind.

To me once special, will always be special. Whether or not it's still there.

Updating Life

Here I am trying to think what to update about my life. hmmm... its half past 5am now. I can't go to sleep because I need to go to the market to do some groceries at 6.30am. So I'm trying to find something to do for the mean time and I decided to update a little about my life here.

I'm back in KL after 2 weeks plus at home, in KK. Spent time with my family. Have a few get together will all my aunts and uncles and cousins. It was fun and the food was GRRREAATTT!!! hehe... I have another 5 days before my new semester starts and Ramadhan comes to visit. I have no plans on how to waste my time. I'll just go with the flow. So if anyone is free and wants to hang out, give me a call. :)

Updates... hmmmm... I just changed my hairstyle maybe one of the days I'll upload it here on my blog. Right now I just don't feel like it yet. What else? lalalalalalala~ I have no idea. I dont really have any EXTRAVAGANZA stories to share. Oh, he's back! That's it. No comment.

If I were you, you should stop reading this post now because you're just wasting your time. It's only gonna be words but actually it's empty. Nothing Important or significant. I'm sleeeepy. But if I sleep now, I dont think I can wake to go to the market later. Haih~

Plans for today :
1. Go to the market.
2. Sleep my ass off.
3. Maybe try and cook Wantan Ho.
4. Online.
5. Maybe cook something else.
6. Maybe wash my car at Rasta.
7. Waste my time and life.
8. SLEEP!

The Nephew :)

 So-called baby-sitting my nephew ;P I can see that he loves the camera... haha!