September through December......

random pictures throughout september to december....

*monkey!!!!! =)*

*zarra's wedding ring... to my future husband this is the smallest that i will accept.. lalala~~*

*the late baby valentine days before he passed away... RIP*

*sir turtle.... so vain!!! haha*

*the statement says it all!! heee =P*

*fish spa^ing*

*ms zarra and sir turtle*

*bora asmra^ing with baloons and zarra and turtle and yashie~~*

*my nieces..... aisy and alya*

*the little feet that buat me SOOOO geram!!!*

*different blood but sisters all the way~~*

IT HURTS

it just hit me how i really feel at the moment and the past 4 or so months...
u used me.
u took advantage of me.
u hurt me.
u played me.

i was stupid
i was willing to be used
i thought im the one taking advantage of you
i thought im the one winning
instead the decision i made backfired on me.

im hurt
im the one who lost
you got the best of both worlds
when i only get not even half of you

u bring out the worst in me
i made stupid decisions when im with you
sometimes even when ur not around
sometimes when ur only on my mind

now i know where i stand
in ur life
compared to her
im just another tourist destination for you...
i hope the changes thats happening now..
would take far away from you.. it seems that way...
even how hard it is for me to let go of u now...
its better for me to let you go now...

i need to get over you
i need to move on from you
i need me. the old me. before u.