The Panda Who Loves The Rain
somewhere i can write anything i like. no restriction.
Wednesday, September 2, 2015
ADULT*ing?
It is hard to land a job now with this economy so what choice do I have? Stay and let me be eaten alive in this working world or quit and do something that I love? Both options comes down to the financial issue. The first one will help me in being better financially and the latter will put me in financial risk. I'm not happy if I stay, but I'm not sure if I can survive and if my family is willing to support me. I am confused, lethargic, not happy and lost. I AM LOST in this ADULT WORLD. I might just hate it. Am I the problem? Not being thankful? I am. God, I am.
Here is what I think I'm gonna do right now. I should read more. writing this seems like a headache. The words I know deep within me, I can't remember. Maybe read more on my industry and learn from there since I cant do any technical things here because they said I am a girl. BULL!!! Just because I am a girl, does not mean I cannot do all the heavy work. This is what I wanna say, "DUDE!!!! I carry mineral boxes during my Viper Volunteer more than most of the guys. nearly non-stop until two lorries were filled (not just me la). And then we had to unload the lorries. and then we have to continue our work. I have muscles and bruises everywhere. Did I complain? No, I was proud of it. Proud of the things that I am able to do."
Wednesday, August 5, 2015
...and I'm Back
Thursday, April 10, 2014
April 2014
Friday, April 19, 2013
It's My Birthday Week!!!
On our birthdays, everyone would wish us a happy birthday on our birthday. I dont really know how it all started. I do appreciate it a lot and the presents. but, somehow I think like *lets talk in my perspective* I dont deserve the wish and somehow we forgot how we get here. The World. its thanks to our parents. weel, they make us (doesnt really matter intentionally or unintentionally), gave birth, feed clothe, support, finance and i can go on with this infinite list but i think you get the idea. aren't we suppose to wish them, thank them and give presents to them instead??? they (and also god) gave us the perfect gift of life. i think it should be the whole way around isnt it? but it can work in both ways (i still want the presents and attention!!) or maybe we can take a time off and let them know?
Im not good with words or affection. My family knows that very very well. my mum even call me "hati batu". go figure. Im trying to work on it. at least i showed my dad what i wrote to him on this blog for father's day. even though it was months after that. still, i did it!!! *punches air* Obviously, Im still studying so I dont have the cash to buy them anything. but hopefully I can think of something nice to say or something creative to give to them. to show my appreciation and to tell them that i never forget the sacrifices they made for me. and hopefully, one day, one sweet day, I can give them what they gave me and I hope more than that.
why??? because I LOVE THEM!!!!
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Why I cut my hair.
I think there is always a reason why a person cuts their hair. Right? Esspecially when we are changing our hairstyle quite dramatically. For me, there is big reason why. The last time I cut my hair this short was nearly 4 years ago. I never did anything to my hair after I met a person. When I used to rwlly took care of my hair. Maybe im too comfortable with that person, because that peraon has seen me in my worst, that I no longer care how I present myself. Now, I suddenly realised that fact. Now I have a new principle in my life. Never do rhings foe aomeone ekse. Do it because it makes you happy. Do it because you want to make yourswlf. Do it because you love yourself. :) at least you can be sure that you will never dissapoint yourself. Never hurt yourself. Hoorah! Cheers to loving yourself first, before giving your love to someone else.